Doug Bruns

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Casco Bay, 5:00 am.

In Mythology, Nature on April 12, 2011 at 7:37 pm

I was awakened at 5:00 am this morning by a screeching, a sound akin to what I think a baby seal must make when its ice flow drifts away from mother, or at least in my interrupted slumber that is what it sounded like. But it was nothing so troublesome or romantic. The Wendameen, an historic Maine schooner, built in 1912 and used to sail tourists around Casco Bay, is tied up on the dock below my bedroom window. In the winter it is stripped and shrink wrapped and left to struggle against the Maine winter alone. Soon, however, it will come out of hibernation and move four wharfs away where it will impress upon its visitors a singular beauty. But now, this morning, it was rocking against the dock, the protective bumper squeaking as the tide rose, plaintive like the abandoned seal.

I got up and boiled water and let the coffee seep four minutes before pressing, as I do every morning. Always the same. Grind, pour, wait, drink. Sigh. This morning I looked, again as I always do, at the thermometer. It was fifty-five degrees outside and I opened the porch door and stepped out. The balcony faces east and the light was low and the color of honey. I looked up to the river and bobbing there in the golden coins of surface water must have been fifty common eiders, black on white, chirping, like a congregation before the service begins, low and personal, amongst themselves. They are collecting themselves, getting ready to head north for the summer. And below me, directly, was the loon I’d been watching recently. Molted. Black and white and the neck ringed. Also, getting ready to leave.

I am saddened to see them leave, these birds who have succeeded against winter so spectacularly. And tonight, so unusual, the tremolo call of the loon. My neighbor who has lived here twenty years tells me she’s never heard the loon call from the wharf. Magic, that call. Listen. They say the loon is amongst the oldest of the birds. Fifty million years or so. Good bye friends, safe travels. Welcome back, Persephone. It is good to see you again.

Casco Bay, Maggie and a winter storm.

In Death, Dogs, Writers on January 2, 2010 at 8:30 pm

“It is easy to forget that in the main we die only seven times more slowly than our dogs.” ~ Jim Harrison, The Road Home

I’ve written of the Harrison quote before. I haunts me. I am a dog person. That’s one thing. And I am also acutely aware of, dare I say?, dieing. That’s the other thing.

At the end of a year, beginning of a year, we are prone to reflection. I will spare you that. (Thank god, you sigh.) No reflection or such similar gibberish. But being a dog person gives one opportunity for contemplation. We die more slowly than our dogs, says Harrison. So imagine how fast they die. Are dogs given to reflection? I think not. I’ve heard it said that dogs have no conception of time. How anyone would know this, I can’t explain. But it makes sense. Maggie seems as excited when I return to her after and hour as she does after a week. Indeed, if a dog where to live being so present, then perhaps the accelerated pace of their existence is not all that bad. But that is just a guess, a mere hopeful consolation.

It was snowing this morning on our walk to the Eastern Prom. Snowing hard. Quiet and no one around type snowing. I heard the waves crashing, which is not normal. But the storm was coming from the northeast and whipping up the bay and slamming it into the rocks–that’s when the phrase “turning the tide” came to mind–and with it thoughts of all the things over which we have no control. Like dieing. Like our dogs dieing. Like the rise and fall of a tide, the turning of the calendar page, the beginning of a new decade. And all that that entails. Which is a lot.

It is natural to think more about the end than the beginning, I think, as you grow older. At fifty-four, I don’t think about it all that much, the end. But I do think about it more than I think about the beginning, that I know. And sometimes it startles me. That’s when I get comfort being around a dog. I know they don’t think of such things. If they did, their eyes would show it, that self-possessed knowledge of the end, and I’ve never seen that in a dog’s eyes. Yes, we die more slowly, and our leisurely pace affords us time to think of such things.

Such it is that the tide rises in the morning and goes out in the afternoon.

Tonight, 8.27.09

In Mythology on August 27, 2009 at 11:12 pm

The Pretender has returned and the fishermen are off-loading the lobster, the catch of the day. They had to go out far today, I’m told, and though I don’t know what that means exactly, I hold visions of rolling seas and high sun and salt in the air far from the mainland. I will need a fleece tonight, like I did this morning while walking Maggie. I can’t image this summer coming to an end.
I made pouched salmon steaks tonight with a butter sauce. The sauce needed a quarter of white wine, and of course the rest of the bottle, well it couldn’t go to waste and the cook was thirsty and of course it is gone now and so the night rolls in and my coffee will soon be whisky and my cigar gone, but Ray LaMontagne will continue to sing in my ears regardless of the sun, the cigar, the drink, the wine.
The ancients saw the end of summer as the end of life and the end of everything alive above the earth; they saw youthful maidens adorning themselves with wings and preparing to fly off, leaving, them, us, behind. So, tonight, the maidens are across the water and if I squint and look directly I can see them checking their harnesses and getting ready to flee. But not yet. They are not released just this soon. Stay awhile, please. Please.